I was in an emotional roller coaster ride for the past weeks, emotionally wrecked. I even succumbed to thinking negatively of everyone's actions, in order to make myself feel better. I keep planting negative thoughts into myself and trying to convince myself that everything is going to screw up no matter what I do. Then I'll feel guilty for doing that, the cycle will just keep repeating, going round and round. At one point, I thought this crap is never going to end. I felt as though the whole world is against me. I'm glad I climbed out from the hellhole which I dug and buried myself into. I can't say I'm entirely fine now, but I'm better, at least I think so. I took off my glasses, cleaned them and looked through everything in a clearer view now. All in all, we had a good time, memories, feelings and lessons from each other. You taught me a lot, I'm grateful for that. (: I don't want to ever forget that, I don't want to feel the guilt of putting you into the forever-negative box.

One day, I'll laugh reading this post. Or maybe I'll struggle thinking who was this post dedicated to? LMAO! Because Sim Ann has already forgotten her addiction on May 2010, maybe same thing will happen to me. For now, I honestly hope I won't forget this. This ambiguous thing that I once treasured and hold on so tightly to it until I lost myself for awhile. Ha. (: